The moment I realized I couldn’t keep doing digital ministry like this

When you realize you can’t keep going like this… what do you do next?

I didn’t get there slowly.

I crashed.



Hard.

The crash

I stepped away from everything.

Ministry.

Leadership.

I drove Uber.



And honestly… I didn’t know if I was coming back.

The moment

A pastor offered to pray for me.

I said:

“I don’t need prayer. Prayer doesn’t fix anything.”

That was me.



That’s how far I had drifted.

What it was costing me

Digital ministry almost cost me everything.

My marriage.

My family.

My relationships.

Isolation set in.



Depression followed.

Walking away

I handed theChurch.digital to others.

Someone asked if I’d come back.

I said:



“I’m not sure I am.”

What changed 

I stepped away for six months.

Got into counseling.

Met with people who could speak into my life.

Rebuilt trust with my wife.



Spent time broken before God.

What I know now

You can’t keep doing ministry at the cost of your soul.



Eventually, something breaks.

This is who I am.